Why did I start blogging?
I actually have no idea. I thought maybe I would have a story to tell. I thought it might lead me to meet new people? Or was it because I follow a million blogs and wanted to be just like them?
Probably the later. As you know imitation is the biggest form of flattery (or something like that) but I have honestly decided I am going to be myself. I am not that witty, usually offensive.
I am not slim, fashionable or overly 'pretty' I make an effort on a occasion. I am a good mum, in fact, I am a great mama. That is something I can say. But the rest of it? I am not sure.
I can be a pretty crappy partner. Nick is a freaking saint. I am also a terrible writer. Look at all these short paragraphs and sentence fragments. Yuck. No one likes terrible writing.
I don't care though, I am sick of trying to be something I am not. I am a kind person but not overly positive. I give fantastic advice, but would never follow through on it myself. I can motivate people to change their lives, yet can't control how much chocolate I eat. I am me. I am not going to change. I am 26. I think I am fairly set in stone. I would love to be into beauty, but putting on makeup is often a chore. I would love to be a DIYer, but I am not, I have FAAAAR too many unfinished projects.
Here are some things that I am:
- I am exhausted a lot of the time. Not because I overwork myself, no no, it is because I stay up to ungodly hours watching youtube. I even find some of the content incredibly boring, yet I watch.
- I am a great mama and proud of it. Sophia is incredibly smart. I have also been known to switch on my phone, put it on youtube so I can get an extra 20 minutes sleep. I have also yelled at her, and got mad at her for no fault of her own. I usually feel terrible, but I have done it more than once.
- I am a good friend. But you have to be able to take the good with the bad. I can be honest. Brutally honest. Some people don't like that, but it is what I am. If you try on a dress, and it looks terrible, I will tell you. No matter how much you love it. Some people wan't 'yes people' in their lives. I am not one of those people.
- I can be a negative nancy. I complain a lot. I like to let you know what is bothering be and I want you to care. However I will do the same. Tell me your woes, I will offer any advice or help I can.
I am not really sure what else I am. I am sick of not being me. However, I am not entirely sure who I am. Maybe this is the turn my blog will take? Probably not. I am just going to write what I feel like. It is just going to be a blog about nothing, or me, a girl you have never and probably will never meet!