Wednesday, 28 August 2013

A mini photo shoot..

Fathers day is coming up here in New Zealand and I wanted to create something special for Nick. I am not going to share any of the pictures I am using for his actual project, but I thought I would share a few I took today. I only needed 3 photos, but ended up with about 70. Here are some that didn't make the cut! Isn't she a wee mini model in the making? (This is where you just agree and say yes)

Distracted by the neighbours

Laughing with Mama!

Uh Oh, that didn't last long!

Now I have really said something to upset her!

Clearly her model pose

Just a funny wee face!

Don't you just want to squeeze her? She has so much personality and talks non stop! I can't believe she will be two in November! Anyway, this was really just a post to show how cute my kid is (and I even left the cutest ones out!).

Sunday, 25 August 2013

Why don't you want me?!?

I have been trying to get a job for a while now. At first, it was half heartedly. But now it is rather serious. I need money, and I need some adult interaction in my life. I love being home with Sophia, but I feel myself getting stupider by the day. I need a challenge again.

My profession isn't actually over run with adult interaction. I am an early childhood teacher. It means that I will be trading looking after one kid to looking after many. However, I love the job, and I love looking after the little tikes. It's like having a whole heap of children, you get to share in their joy, excitement and learning. Yet I have struggled getting a job. I think there are two reasons.

1. Sophia, people are worried I will take too much time off if she is sick because I have no family here, and Nick isn't always available to do it. 

2. I am too honest. I say what I mean, and I mean what I say. What you see is what you get. Most people put on a huge front in an interview, but I don't. I tell potential employers this but I don't think they always believe me. I think they expect when they hire me I won't do what I say and I will get shite. I don't talk up what I will do. I don't want to disappoint them. I would rather they know what they are getting. I am beginning to think that honesty is not always my friend.

So potential employers that might google my name may in fact be reading this. Here are the facts. I will take care of my daughter. My family is important to me. However, I will also do my damndest to be at work every day. I work hard and I enjoy what I do. So please, just say yes. 

Saturday, 24 August 2013

Had enough!

Why did I start blogging? 

I actually have no idea. I thought maybe I would have a story to tell. I thought it might lead me to meet new people? Or was it because I follow a million blogs and wanted to be just like them? 

Probably the later. As you know imitation is the biggest form of flattery (or something like that) but I have honestly decided I am going to be myself. I am not that witty, usually offensive. 

I am not slim, fashionable or overly 'pretty' I make an effort on a occasion. I am a good mum, in fact, I am a great mama. That is something I can say. But the rest of it? I am not sure. 

I can be a pretty crappy partner. Nick is a freaking saint. I am also a terrible writer. Look at all these short paragraphs and sentence fragments. Yuck. No one likes terrible writing. 

I don't care though, I am sick of trying to be something I am not. I am a kind person but not overly positive. I give fantastic advice, but would never follow through on it myself. I can motivate people to change their lives, yet can't control how much chocolate I eat. I am me. I am not going to change. I am 26. I think I am fairly set in stone. I would love to be into beauty, but putting on makeup is often a chore. I would love to be a DIYer, but I am not, I have FAAAAR too many unfinished projects. 

Here are some things that I am:
  • I am exhausted a lot of the time. Not because I overwork myself, no no, it is because I stay up to ungodly hours watching youtube. I even find some of the content incredibly boring, yet I watch.
  •  I am a great mama and proud of it. Sophia is incredibly smart. I have also been known to switch on my phone, put it on youtube so I can get an extra 20 minutes sleep. I have also yelled at her, and got mad at her for no fault of her own. I usually feel terrible, but I have done it more than once.
  •  I am a good friend. But you have to be able to take the good with the bad. I can be honest. Brutally honest. Some people don't like that, but it is what I am. If you try on a dress, and it looks terrible, I will tell you. No matter how much you love it. Some people wan't 'yes people' in their lives. I am not one of those people. 
  •  I can be a negative nancy. I complain a lot. I like to let you know what is bothering be and I want you to care. However I will do the same. Tell me your woes, I will offer any advice or help I can. 

I am not really sure what else I am. I am sick of not being me. However, I am not entirely sure who I am. Maybe this is the turn my blog will take? Probably not. I am just going to write what I feel like. It is just going to be a blog about nothing, or me, a girl you have never and probably will never meet!